152

Well I finally got my period yesterday and today I'm at 152...  I am back to my regular neurontin dose of 300 and sleep is back to normal.  I am doing a lot of things to pay attention to getting good sleep, which I am now remembering I used to do, and I guess I just kind of let those things slide for a while... and maybe that's why my sleep got worse.  So now I'm getting focused on them again.

For example: making sure the cat has water, food, and a clean litter box before i go to sleep.  this is so key, because otherwise he wakes me up in the middle of the night.  I got lazy about doing this for a while...

anyways so now I'm doing a bunch of stuff (also cleaning the house before bed, taking a bath before bed... etc)

and my weight is getting back to where it was.  I'm pretty happy to be at 152, I think it shows a good amount of loss.  I was at 162 when I started my journal, and to be at 152 now is pretty good.   I want to make sure I don't get so bloated next month before my period, so I want to keep paying attention to my sleep and drink a lot of water (I also started slacking on the water drinking, and I really noticed how much of a difference that makes)

I rented a book from the library "cinch" about weight loss, so I will let you know what I think of that one.

and I've been doing some exercise videos I really like: cardio burn sculpt by tanja djelevic - this is AMAZING.  i love this personal trainer, she works with jennifer garner and uma thurman.

i would like to start doing this video more often, and really tone my abs.  i think it could really benefit me.

i noticed that I got a massage on monday afternoon.  it was pretty deep, and the massage therapist recommended that I hold off on exercise for 24 hours.  however I wasn't able to, and ended up going to dance class that night, yoga tues morning, and a walk tues afternoon.

he suggested that exercising after a massage could end up actually damaging me and I have noticed some pain since then.

so, lesson learned and I will try to schedule massages in the future at better times.  I think it is best to get a lot of exercise in first, then a massage.

however...  I am not going to get too "psychological" about it, or "in my head"...  sometimes pain can just be generated from worrying about something, and I don't want to worry about it too much.

also, estrogen is low (which i have now) so I would be more sensitive to pain anyways.

sooo... lots of water... and enjoying life.  happy to be at 152 and just planning to focus on sleep.

:)

feelin groovy.