Down to 151.  I have been exercising so much all week.  It was national Dance week, and I tried so many new classes: Brazilian dance, Samba dance, belly dancing, zumba, nia, pilates.  I wish I could afford to take all those classes all the time.

It was great.

Back to 152...  I just want to get to 149 by May 1st so I can be where I was when I started this month!  It is time for bootcamp!  I am going into major exercise & health food mode.  Hard core!

I'll keep you posted on the results.

Woot!

It's national dance week so I'm planning on take a LOT of free dance classes for workouts (I went to a brazilian dance class last night that probably accounted for at least 1 of those pounds from yesterday being worked off...)

I might also drop back to .75 on the risperdal to help with the weight loss and now that stress seems to be backing down... as long as I can watch my sleep schedule and keep stress minimized.

Plan to drink a LOT of water.

It's time for BOOT CAMP.

well I increased my risperdal because I was concerned about my bipolar and felt like I needed some extra support from my medication.

and cue: the weight gain.

up from 152 to 154.  and I feel super sluggish, lazy, slow...  and totally craving carbs.  however, cravings lots of food and feeling sluggish is typical "during my period" behavior, gaining weight is NOT.  (usually I would be down to 149ish by now)

so THANKS medication for making me:

a) sluggish
b) retain water
 and
c) crave junk food

when are they going to invent psych meds that don't make you feel and look like a pig?  (no offense to those of the porcine persuasion)

anyways...  it's good to be feeling more "normal" mentally at least, and I know I can handle the weight if I just keep trying.  drink a LOT of water, eat a LOT of vegetables...  and minimize stress.

and exercise.

sunday april 22

"Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.
Sorry I have been so absent.  Cousins visiting from out of town so eating a lot more than usual, plus my knee gave out so couldn't run for at least 2 months.

The good news is I only gained 2 pounds, the bad news is that I am over 130 again.  :(
131.5
Sigh.
Back to normal--salad, vegetables, trying to watch the carbs (although I really savor that piece of Dave's killer bread and pb every day)

Power yoga, really hard.  Weeding with Martine.  Shopping for book club party.
Seeing Russ tomorrow, I hope I can be direct.  He says he can't trust me, not sure about what.  That
I won't embarrass him in public?  That's my goal, to get a nice clear answer.  The man is slippier than a
greased pig, so I'd say I have a 50/50 chance.

protein smoothie
bread & pb
grapefruit
gazpacho & salmon salad from TJ

I lost 3 ibs!

Just from eating vegetables and lots of water. I haven't really even been exercising!

this is my idea for a salad

salad idea

purple cabbage, chopped
black beans
cilantro
tomato, chopped
red onion
avocado, chopped
corn
chopped mango

dressing:
lime juice, honey, olive oil
(maybe use frozen mango? let it thaw in the fridge?)

***edit****

so I JUST made some of this.  I found an amazing ripe mango at New Leaf, and I added a scallion and some garlic.  I think it will be even better after it sits in the fridge for a bit to let the flavors blend, but I couldn't wait so i'm eating some now!

Maybe achieveing victory, asserting you will, and asserting yourself should be my new mantra.

http://www.okcupid.com/results/the-what-tarot-card-resembles-you-test/?var_truth=30&var_wellbeing=24&fromCGI=1&var_wisdom=34&var_change=32

Stressed

My friend noticed that was I feeling stressed. Guess that is more belly flat for me. I just feel so stuck at school and especially in this house. Ughhh. I can't even sleep right.

Motivational women

Motivational Weight Loss Quotes

• “People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing – that’s why we recommend it daily.” ~Zig Ziglar

Movement is a medicine for creating change in a person's physical, emotional, and mental states. ~Carol Welch

so in reference to this post

http://weigh2gobd.blogspot.com/2012/03/frozen-cherries.html

where i shared my smoothie recipe

i was guessing that cherries have the same benefits as chocolate...  i googled it again and turns out chocolate, green tea, red wine... all have catechins...  and so do cherries!

:)

Ideas for party weight management/ holiday weight management

http://my.clevelandclinic.org/heart/prevention/nutrition/holidayeating12_01.aspx

I am just feeling really frustrated..how do I start getting rid of this belly flat

Mom's broccoli salad

raw broccoli broken into little florets (2 lb?)
white cheddar cheese (medium or sharp) (6 oz?) diced small
dried cranberries (1 cup?)
toasted pecans (1 cup?) chopped or broken
red onions (1/2 large??) chopped small
yogurt (1 c?) & frozen oj (1/4 c?) , and some mayo (1/4c?), for dressing

back to it

So I am 187 again. But at least I rode my bike to school this morning. I did pretty good today drank a lot of water. However I chowed down a whole french bread with olive oil. Bad move but a salad for dinner with 2 hardboiled eggs and half an avocado.

It is ridiculous that Kinder Surprise eggs are banned in the USA.  No wonder we are so fat here.  They are so fun and cute and rewarding and only 100 calories.  Instead I bought cadbury's eggs for myself and my mom and they are 180 calories instead and don't come with a fun toy.

it's ridiculous.

also...  I did my 10 minute ab workout this morning and I am FEELING IT!

I want to start doing 10 minutes of ab exercises every morning (the 10 min video by tanya djelevic)

Information about supplements/vitamins and weight loss:


http://www.thatsfit.com/2011/04/11/can-vitamins-help-you-lose-weight/

my weight loss idea now as it is getting into spring and summer and fresh produce is available is to eat more raw food!  yum!

http://www.rawfoodrecipes.com/

I have noticed that since I have been losing weight I have gotten more attention from creepy guys.  For example, invading my personal space or touching me when I don't want to be touched.  I assume it's a lot worse for young women (this wasn't really a problem for me when I was young, maybe because I was heavy or shy or had "stay away from me" body language or maybe it didn't bother me or something but now I definitely notice it and I don't like it.

I found an article about it

Personal space invasion

the rose that grew from concrete

Currently stuck on hold with the insurance company.  Can't wait to get some money back.

Have a bunch of health stuff I need to get done.

Still need to get more treatments on:

-plantar wart (just a tiny one)
-freckle check
-pap smear
-talk to plastic surgeon about loose skin from weight loss... am considering tummy tuck but do not really want to do something invasive that will have me "down for the count" and unable to exercise for a while... I'm afraid I will gain weight!!  But I do want to have better self esteem and feel good about myself.

I am really looking forward to having these bills dealt with though that will be a weight off my back :)

sunday april fools

Haven't weighed myself in over a week, since Jed & Carol came. I guess a week ago Saturday when I was 130.

Will weigh myself tomorrow.

Deirdre, way to go!! wow!! Talk about being on track...

My weight management has really suffered from bad knee...haven't been able to walk, let alone run. It seems to be slowly repairing itself, but I guess I have to bring the exercycle back out.

Sigh.

My March Food Diary

Click the "Read More" button to see it!!!!

notes: I want to eat more fruit...